I am now a full-fledged medical clerk; a member of the hospital medical staff; a participant in the provision of health care. I've been working close to 130+ hours per week, going on 24-hr duties every three days. I''ve been through Surgery, OB-Gyne, ENT and Psychiatry and I've enjoyed each one of my rotations. Nonetheless, there were times that I was down, depressed, slipping through the cracks.
I am currently staying at A's, it's much easier to go to the hospital from here. He has also been helpful, talking me through whenever I get these episodes.
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Being in Psychiatry, I've become more paranoid than usual. Do I actually have a psychiatric disorder? Should I seek consult now? What if it's all in my head? I'll save those for later.
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One of my biggest fear is to have dementia. I'm so scared that one day I wont remember things that I sued to know. One of my patients told me that it was really scary noticing how she was starting to have difficulties concentrating and remembering things, noticing that she worked slower then usual. Even her reflexes while playing badminton were slower. She doesn't have dementia, but still I fear experiencing that point. One of my interns has a family history of Alzheimer's, he said the key is to continuously stimulate his brain. I don't think I have a family history of such, but it's better to be safe than sorry. Work those brain ass, yo!
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I was supposed to write something more coherent. But by the time I finished signing out a different account, logging in and clicking new post, all the ideas already evaporated. Gone. Poof!
Is this dementia, early onset? Oh, please no!