good ol' days.

I have two long exams tomorrow that would cover 19 lectures. I am only in trans no. 1 and already I'm feeling a bit lazy. In order to motivate myself, I scrounged my old notes and found my Supremo notebook Vol I. I am amazed at the amount of info I have written in their compared to my current Vol II. Oh, how I used to be passionate, idealistic and enthusiastic! Now I am just a lazy bum trying to get by. I want my old vigour back!

scraps.

THE truth is, I have been bouncing back and forth between bouts of depression for a couple of months now. There were times that I would just stay in bed the whole day and would miss classes. At first, I would fight ever so dearly this episodes and try my hardest to work but as days, weeks and months go on, I got tired and eventually gave up. But I say, no more! No longer would I succumb to such sadness!

scraps of wisdom:

We must proceed in a calm and orderly manner.
- Aung San Suu Kyi

Positive vibes everyday. Sana lagi kang masaya.
- A

Watch your thoughts for they become words. Watch your words for they become actions. Watch your actions for they become habits. Watch your habits for they become your character. And watch your character for it becomes your destiny! What we think, we become.
-The Iron Lady

And yeah, A bought me a new netbook. No reason to fail now.

still not enough.

I have studied hard last night and I felt that I accomplished a lot. Yet, when I came to school this morning, I realized that I barely covered the material. There is still so much to do.

Passion, I need you right now!

on self actualization.

From my old notes:

THERE is nothing wrong with immersing oneself in culture and arts. If man had just sticked to manual labor and worked only with the goal of basic survival, we wouldn't have the likes of Hidalgo, da Vinci, Dickens, Kipling, Mozart and Bach. I believe that every man's goal should be to excel in all line of human endeavor. Nowadays, however, getting by and making a living is quite hard. One must be practical if one wishes to survive these changing times. Sometimes, a part-time job is not enough.

I am not saying that one should completely turn one's back to the arts or the other. Having a job that enables one to put bread on the table and being able to pursue art for art's sake is not mutually exclusive. However, in order to enjoy both, one must work extra hard.



I guess, it is the same way with academics. If I want to engage myself in extracurricular activities, if I want to pursue other interests, then I must be first be able to address the demands of my studies. Hence, be more attentive in class, read lessons in advance, study more efficiently and effectively and minimize lost time. It's the price I have to pay. No pain, no gain, eh?

Something distantly related:

Human beings the world over need freedom and security that they may be able to realize their full potential. -Aung San Suu Kyi

HUSTLE. HUSTLE. HUSTLE.

something to ponder upon.

I read this from another blog and it got me thinking.

Our lives become a series of milestones by which we procrastinate. I’ll travel when I graduate. I’ll write when the semester is finished. I’ll do all those things I love when medicine is finished. But medicine doesn’t finish. It doesn’t go away once you’ve graduated or finished intern year or entered a surgical training program or you own the hospital. However, your youth does finish.

Time to HUSTLE. HUSTLE. HUSTLE.

definitions.

Diligence

• constant and earnest effort to accomplish what is undertaken
• working with care and effort
• persistent exertion of body and mind

Type A

• competitive personality
• anxious, hard-working person who has a strong drive to succeed and finds it hard to delegate or share tasks with colleagues
  

resolutions.

YOU could say that my life has been crap for a couple of months now. Instead of doing anything, I have been wallowing in it and indulging in self-pity. This must now stop. It's time to get myself back together and keep moving. Hence, I now resolve to do the following:

Resolution 12001: Wake up at 0445H. Take a bath at 0500H. Leave house by 0530H. If arrive to school early, review notes or read non-acad books.

Resolution 12002: Review notes and read books after class. Read trans and annotate upon receiving. Review annotated trans before exam.

That's it for now.

P.S. A messaged me last night. hooray!