tree hugger.

I have recently engaged in a new activity -organic farming. Well actually, I still don't have the means to put up a farm and so, I am just starting to set up a vegetable garden. I haven't really grown anything in the past yet and so, I am keeping my fingers crossed on this one.

I am chronicling my struggles in putting up my organic farm here:
http://reallyhighintothesky.blogspot.com

leave no man behind.

WHEN I go home people'll ask me, "Hey Hoot, why do you do it man? What, you some kinda war junkie?" You know what I'll say? I won't say a goddamn word. Why? They won't understand. They won't understand why we do it. They won't understand that it's about the men next to you, and that's it. That's all it is.

- Hoot (Black Hawk Down)

I am back in the game.

watch me shine!

*photo not mine.

conceptual framework.

IN the midst of all my troubles, I decided that I should adopt a new attitude in life. I call this framework, the 'can do, will do' model. I will make the most out of life, try to gain as much EXP as possible. I will push my limits to its end.

I am only one, but I am one.
I cannot do everything, but I can do something.
In what I can do, I ought to do;
And in what I ought to do, by the grace of god, I will do it.

Funny, I have already known this for three years and it is only now that I am taking it by heart.

DUTY. HONOR. and COUNTRY.

AFTER three years in the corps, I am finally free and all I can say is that I am overwhelmed by a mixture of emotions -happiness, sadness, excitement but mostly nostalgia. It is such a breather that there would be no more CQs, no more TDs, no more dress codes and above all, no more corps responsibilities. But honestly, I still can't see myself apart from the corps. I have been a CO almost all of my UP life. It is inside the corps where I found most of my friends. It is also in the corps that I was able to experience many things that otherwise I would not have. I would surely miss the times I spent with my classmates, upperclass and lowerclassmen.

Furthermore, I harbor a sort of feeling of regret. I regret not being able to perform my best during my stay in the corps. I regret missing CQs and TDs. And most of all, I regret not being able to make all the plans we had, materialize. But nevertheless, I am glad that during our stay in the corps, my lowerclassmen were happy. I am grateful that somehow, they sought me for guidance and example. I am happy that in someway, I have contributed to the their development.

If I were to relive my college life, I would surely like to change some of the decisions I have made in my UP life, but never would I regret entering the corps.


*photo not mine.

the beatles.

*photo not mine.








LUCY in the sky with diamonds.

bucket list.

THE fear of death is worse than death -these are the words of Robert Burton. I have long accepted that everyone, sooner or later, would have to kick the bucket and come to an end. I don't believe in reincarnation nor life after death. I deem that once a person dies, he cease to exist and can only subsist in the minds and memories of those he left behind, nothing more and nothing less.

Nevertheless, I can't say that I don't have any qualms about dying. I also have my own trepidations. I don't want to disappear and be forgotten forever. I want to continue living -maybe not physically but rather in the pages of history or the lives of persons I have left behind. I guess I could say, my biggest fear is living a life of failure and mediocrity. I don't want to be that insignificant dot who can disappear without anyone noticing. I want to be something.

I realized that in order to avoid this, I need to have an objective. I need to have a clear goal that would direct me in making my decisions and pursuing a course of action. And this goal that I am talking about needs to be SMART. Ergo, I have made a bucket list. It is the list of all the things I want to accomplish before I kick the bucket, before I expire.

The contents of it may not seem much. Some of which will not contribute greatly to my existence. But at least I know, in my self, that in this short life time of mine, I HAVE MANAGED TO DO SOMETHING.