LIFE is becoming harder to live day by day. :(
just live strong...
A foray into the thoughts and reflections of this bipedal Homo sapien with opposable thumbs
28 December 2012
23 December 2012
waiting.
IT'S been five months since you left and nineteen more months before your return. In the five months that you've been gone, my life has been series of waiting -one post at a time;
one message until the next. There were days that I would just spend my time sleeping, waking up only to check if you had already left a message. These were the moments wherein your absence seems almost unbearable -frustrating that no matter how much I will it, you won't be here anytime soon; that if only I could sleep and everything would be okay.
Since you've been gone, I felt that my life has come to a halt. I refused to go to parties because I wanted my next drink be with you. I refused to go on mall sales because I wanted to shop clothes with you. I refused to have my glasses fixed because I wanted to pick out a new frame with you. I refused to go to Cebu because I wanted my first plane ride be with you. And sometimes I think that I want to delay school so that I could experience medschool with you. It's just that in two years, a lot of things would happen in my life -big family decisions, clerkship, the prime of my youth! -things that I consider milestones, things that I would later remember years from now. And these are the things that I don't want you to miss out in my life. I have already missed out on most of your youth, when you were still young and idealistic and passionate and crazy. Hence, I don't want you to miss out on my youth too. And so, I try as I might to put them off, all of them off, even the very little things until you're here.
Nineteen more months of waiting.
15 November 2012
13 November 2012
happy one year!
To my dearest A,
Today we celebrate our one year together.
Who would have thought that this impulsive-kind of love would last this long. Just 6 days before we became together, we were complete strangers.
A year has already passed, and indeed, we have been through a lot.
I remember the soft iloveyou's that we whisper over our meals in Mang Inasal. I remember our short walks along España and trips to the market, our lunch dates in TMC wherein you would wait for me by the lobby fountain and we would eat pasta in the cafeteria. I remember the time we had baked mac + orange juice in your room while talking about random things and feeling safe, happy and content. I also remember our fights, big and small, and how those didn't stopped us from loving each other.
It's sad that you aren't here with me nor I am there with you to celebrate this day. I really miss you so much. But as they say, distance means so little when someone means so much.
Happy anniversary my dear! I love you so much! Take care!
Today we celebrate our one year together.
Who would have thought that this impulsive-kind of love would last this long. Just 6 days before we became together, we were complete strangers.
A year has already passed, and indeed, we have been through a lot.
I remember the soft iloveyou's that we whisper over our meals in Mang Inasal. I remember our short walks along España and trips to the market, our lunch dates in TMC wherein you would wait for me by the lobby fountain and we would eat pasta in the cafeteria. I remember the time we had baked mac + orange juice in your room while talking about random things and feeling safe, happy and content. I also remember our fights, big and small, and how those didn't stopped us from loving each other.
It's sad that you aren't here with me nor I am there with you to celebrate this day. I really miss you so much. But as they say, distance means so little when someone means so much.
Happy anniversary my dear! I love you so much! Take care!
06 November 2012
three sems left.
ONLY three semesters left before the academic phase of our medical education is over. Three semesters before we get to wear the white coat. Three semesters before we head out to the hospitals and deal with real patients. Reading this article, I feel both worried and excited at the same time -worried that I am still not ready but nevertheless, excited that I'd be closer to being a doctor. I guess I better make the most of my time left.
to my dearest A.
It has been one year today since we first met.
I have just taken a bath and was already fixing my bag when I saw you talking to Sir Daz about joining RAHA. I introduced my name and made that joke, ‘Roman god of war and Greek god of war.’ A year later, here we are my dear.
Thank you for making the past 365 days count.
I love you.
I have just taken a bath and was already fixing my bag when I saw you talking to Sir Daz about joining RAHA. I introduced my name and made that joke, ‘Roman god of war and Greek god of war.’ A year later, here we are my dear.
Thank you for making the past 365 days count.
I love you.
02 November 2012
I've been found!
A found my blog! He even posted this on Facebook:
"I went to medicine because I wanted to help alleviate pain and suffering. I wanted to make a change in society. And this is the main reason why I walk the streets of Manila at night -to be able feel compassion and sympathy once again. To be a great doctor that I want to be."
>>> searching the net, i found this part of a blog... i'm happy and proud of her very generous heart but for me, her safety matters above all and i know she understands why i need to roar like a tiger every time she travels Sampaloc to Cainta at 1:00 a.m. <<<
I asked him how he stumbled upon this site, given that it isn't searchable using google, but he won't tell me. Nevertheless, I have a pretty good idea how he did.
"I went to medicine because I wanted to help alleviate pain and suffering. I wanted to make a change in society. And this is the main reason why I walk the streets of Manila at night -to be able feel compassion and sympathy once again. To be a great doctor that I want to be."
>>> searching the net, i found this part of a blog... i'm happy and proud of her very generous heart but for me, her safety matters above all and i know she understands why i need to roar like a tiger every time she travels Sampaloc to Cainta at 1:00 a.m. <<<
I asked him how he stumbled upon this site, given that it isn't searchable using google, but he won't tell me. Nevertheless, I have a pretty good idea how he did.
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